There’s been a brain thing going on recently and dreams involved and what am I?

A friend once told me they were looking for the new Buddah in all the wrong places.

I’ve been told things about me and the way I talk and

I have dreams about being on the cross but it’s all so long ago it doesn’t even pain me in the memory any more.

I feel like I wont die again but how many times have I before?

I don’t think I am whatever I think I am yet and maybe one more incarnation and generation and then I can finally explode.

Good or bad that’s up to the who knows.

I’d really like it if I didn’t have to come back again. I am so tired and please let this be my last.

But at times I do so feel so beautiful and even though I’m using other eyes not my own, and I can see the reflections into eternity,

I’m worried I’m missing something and have one more go around to go.