the thing is, I’m scared. But I don’t know what I’m scared of and I don’t know why I’m scared of whatever it is but it’s there like a presence.

and because I don”t have a safety person close person that can get or make me get that kind of grown up malarkey our of me,

I don’t give a shit.

ADHD/Depression/bi polar/althzeimers/too much weed/am I just a weirdo/is my body indestructable through all the drugs booze times or am I really poorly?

Is it all just fun and games or am I gonna do a Lemmy and pop me clogs at Chrimbo.

Are any of these body and mind aches I have worth paying attention to or is it all just normal?