The thing about the booze/high when it’s right is that’s it’s almost my only Focus time. When I can actually focus on one thought path and follow it without taking any (ish) of the sidetracks offered.

I don’t know if I wish I could do this in normal life but it would be interesting to swap now and again.

I know the booze isn’t good for me, the weed totally is despite any outcomes.

But the two of them together sometimes like now I have more focus than I’ve ever had anywhere.

I do need to cut down on the booze but I need to find the same thing in me that I have then but without it.