I’m gonna keep this up, it’s healthy.

What do I have to say?

That guy’s shit has near enough stopped fucking with me. I’ll think this and that for a bit yet I know, but I think I can handle that quite easy.

It was so upsetting because it’s been a very long time since I’ve been that misunderstood.

Went for a smoke got thinking. A thing that scares me a lot is all this brain stuff. The more I read the more it seems I’ve got ADHD. And i read a thing the other day and this woman said she was old when she got diagnosed and they gave her some meds and everything was the same but clearer.

I imagined it in the way of getting a new pair of glasses.

What if I could do that? What if there were meds that could just make it all a little bit calmer without changing who I am?

I scare me a lot but so many cool people like me that I want to stay like this, I can get by and do a grown up if I absolutely have to but, what if, just what if

I don’t know what if, thoughts end on a blank highway sometimes and I can’t not help writing in a poetry way even in my fucking diary.

I don’t want to be fixed but what if they can actually fix me?

I will die never knowing because I know I’ll never do it. And I no longer have anyone who would make me do such a thing.

I wish I could “accidentally” download the first one for free.