I should do a year end thing want to [shush}

I’ve become more aware of myself and what I do and am really liking me in a weird way of still not getting why people like me but I do get it.

I still wish for next year I could go and get a diagnosis for my brain and have some labels to show off about and join a club or just know a medical word for what I am.

But I never will…what if she fixes me?

I’m a beautiful person and lots of groovy people see that, it’s enough

Maybe when i think I want a label, I actually just want an excuse?

I have a phrase in my head,

‘brains vibrating at the speed of sound’

…well done me for not being dead, you fucking bellend.

I mostly dig me even when I’m scared and we don’t need labels.