full of lovely from the gig but yeah, I’m fine, thanks for asking

Sometimes, like now, I scream and scream and scream and the inside pain is, if I could just scream loud enough I could get rid if it but no so oh, a slice of the knife?

obvs that solves everything but one isn’t allowed any more but why why can’t I but then you realise it’s a different screaming pain and the knife wouldn’t actually help in the situation any way.

so you’re left with,

WELL THEN HOW DO I GET RID OF ALL THIS CACOPHANY OF SCREAMING INSIDE MY HEAD?

I was good tonight. I joined in more the quiz was more up my street I wasn’t just ahem ext for another htought paht day.

I’m been mostly good since I got home and had more beers and smokes and

I don’t want to be dead but it is so much fucking hard work being alive that it is a right pain in the fucking arse.